special places

Haven't reached the acclaims of fame yet
But today a child on a bus waved and waved and waved at me.

I the land of the giants

In the land of the giants, I remember I could hide under tables.
I remember seeing a smoking dragon on the opposite hillside
I remember running at one point and being scared
But it eventually transpired we were treated as equals.

In the land of the giants, I remember I could hide under tables.

space walking

i verge between the here and the now and sometimes, I'm not entirely sure where I am.
Seems things have changed.
the animals are talking and listening again
and by all accounts i should have lost my marbles
except that the worlds within them
are probably just as legitimate.

nearly 40 and not married

I must be dysfunctional.

The diagnosis?

Way way way too much time.
On my hands.

Oh what a lovely depression

It's strange.
I look back on some my thoughts of last year and realise just how insane they were.
At the time, I would have contested.
I'm not mad, I'm seeing literal sense.

The irony? I was probably seeing
things that were probably not there.

It's an odd thing though
to realise
that madness is really only a very small step away.

On the surface, unrippled.
Underneath a 'strom.
Admittedly I am prone to icing over,
but much like nature, it doesn't last long.
Another passing. Another pattern.

And now?
How to live on a budget,
how to exist in a bubble.

And yet I want my grass to be a different hue.
Meantime my reality: my shadow.

Irony is ..

the breath is enough.

Breathe Breathe Breathe

You may be really hurting and really angry.
But hey.

Anger.
It is not doing you or anyone else any good.
Let go.
What are you gaining from it?
Sweet eff a.
Let go of that disappointment.
All it does is carry around in your soul.
Unnecessarily.
Breathe through it.
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe



Now scream!

Meteor shower tonight

Magical apparently.
Off to watch at 10pm.

I wrote this in July for something else. Balanoe.

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Changing behaviour

For some reason, last week, I decided to delete my feeds/email subscriptions.
This means the feeds will run for a few more days and then stop.

As to why I did it?
Well. In all honesty, I'm not entirely sure.

Anyway, in the spirit of enduring change - this is my favourite theory concerning the steps involved in changing habits. Alongside Carr on the easy way, it has helped me give up cigarettes, and now I'm even contemplating losing the booze for good.

1. Oblivious
2. Contemplation
3. Preparation
4. Action
5. Maintenance

James Prochaska PhD

Just dew?